yet another day of memories...
and waiting
I am not really sure what God has in store for me ahead
I know He has me covered
And His plans for me in the long run are good, prosperous and rich ones.
It isn't easy to sit and wait
When all I have to go on with is faith.
I don't really have a plan,
I don't really know what will happen
except to see the days unfold one day at a time
It isn't easy to grow more and more vulnerable with someone
To go through being authentic and risking getting hurt
At times I wonder if it's worthwhile being me
But today I got reminded,
"God created me this way to use me this way, and not any other way"
I believe that God has created me to be open and authentic
To bring light to difficult conversations where people find it difficult
So that issues that are hidden away can be normalised
and brought out of darkness to light
Then He can work on us.
For His glory.
If given a choice, I wouldn't have asked for this.
It's an uncomfortable place to be in
With my brokenness, I would have pushed my way in
Demanded to know what the other was thinking
Why we are doing the things we did
If there was truly nothing
And then forced an outcome
But today, I choose to wait
I value the space we have
The honesty we can share
The moments and memories of vulnerability
I don't understand how we can truly have all these and still not be emotionally connected
Yet, I remember your stance
Which while hard to accept, I respect.
I wish differently of course. And I pray for a chance to give things a go
But nonetheless, not my will be done, but God's be done.
Faithfulness where God has placed me.
Setting the compass of my heart
To be that of not imposing my will
But letting God's will unfold
My life is not my own
3/26/2017 05:43:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey