yet another day of memories...
That I don't receive support easily,
Or as easily as I give.
There's truth to that.
Putting forward my strong front
Is a self-protection mechanism
I don't feel comfortable receiving
I don't want to owe anyone anything
but i am alright giving you something
What led me to this?
Maybe it's my family background
And on reflection
I realise I tend to manage my relationships
with all people these way.
I am only comfortable taking from people
Who I consider are within my inner circle
And maybe this is how I define my boundary
I only receive from you if I trust you
If i trust you enough not to hurt me
The creation of expectations from the taking from you
Is that healthy?
Can that be avoided?
How does this work into authentic living then?
8/24/2012 02:40:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey