Saturday, October 23, 2010
Behavior
Sometimes I really want to be bitchy and mean,
Especially to people who are not very nice
I wonder which is worse,
To be fake but diplomatic
Or be real and mean?
yet another day of memories...
10/23/2010 08:20:00 PM
God is in control, I let Him be
Really learnt that we sometimes have to let go
To recognize that God is in control
Drawing on memories of how we feared and how He came through helps
Intentionally drawing awareness away from doubts & focusing on the task
Prayer no matter how gibberish and incoherent, knowing that He understands
Surrendering despite all rationale & innate doubt
Believing & accepting that what happens may not be what you want
But that what happens is for the better good in the long run
Difficult lesson to learn but we are always going through this and internalizing it
Today, I internalized this once again
yet another day of memories...
10/23/2010 08:15:00 PM
Monday, October 18, 2010
Astounded
Not really sure how my response should be
But I guess my initial reaction was
Disbelief tempered with bemusement
My supervisor was planning his leave for Dec
My relief replacement is going on leave early Dec
He panicked cos he ll be the only one around
So asked if I could come back for a week
Here and there
Of course I said no.
Then he say " Take one week no pay leave there
Come back and cover la"
Am I an idiot or what?
Fool me if I do
Accounting wise it doesn't make sense
Why would I forego higher pay to come back?
Career wise, why would I hurt my new job this way? Hello! I am going to be really tight for time to learn
Social wise, what would make me want to do u this favor?
I really question if he thought about what he was asking me
yet another day of memories...
10/18/2010 02:18:00 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Congrats Miners!
The news is out,
They got a miner out already and
The estimated time for all to be rescued is 48 hrs
Wonderful!
Am really happy for them and their loved ones
yet another day of memories...
10/13/2010 05:31:00 PM
Friday, October 08, 2010
Realities
Very interesting but sobering observations after I tendered
People Type 1 are those who just want to berate you for what they think you did wrong and express their own opinion. On the pretext of congratulating you, they insert 'I already suspect ... when ...' and 'if you already planned this, you shouldn't ...'
Okay, I got your point like totally.Seriously, am I supposed to exhibit signs and express my interest in looking for another job? Ever heard of career suicide?
People Type 2, very sad reality of human kind I feel, start with brief congratulations then quickly veer into "let me see how your departure can benefit me" zone. Typically with "Oh you can't go ... I must go tell XYZ that I would like to go ..." kind of self interest or "Eh your position is not well right, I call my XYZ to apply then." that kind of drift
Well, I don't blame them. It's natural instinct to think of self first in the workplace, but it sure hurts to know that I am seen just as another piece of meat that one can benefit from
People Type 3, typically known as the auntie kaypohs (though can be both genders), ask the very off the limits or duh questions. They sometimes self answer after that which makes it funnier. Their "fishing for info" skills sometimes need working on as it can get painfully obvious what they are getting at. "Are you getting higher pay?""Are you unhappy here?"
I fear these ppl the most. You never can tell whether they have an agenda, mean you malice or are just kaypohs. At least, I am unable to, and yet I don't wish to assume the worst of people. So my reaction is to be as vague and diplomatic but seriously how do you handle them?
But there is always hope in humankind and that's Type 4. They wish you all the best, express how they wish I would stay and yet how happy they are for me. It's the words they say And the sincerity you feel. They remind me why I should always stay true to nature, not have to connive and be selfish. And because of them, I can still have a little faith and not be totally driven to being cynical by the humans of the world.
Thank God for them, really.
yet another day of memories...
10/08/2010 07:14:00 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2010
071010
I QUIT
yet another day of memories...
10/07/2010 02:49:00 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Change is coming
Bidding my time,
Preparing myself
Gathering my thoughts
Pepping myself
Change is coming
Scared yet anticipating
Learning once again
To forget I and trust You
yet another day of memories...
10/06/2010 05:17:00 PM