yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
Not really sure why I am doing what I am doing
In the need for efficiency
I don't know if the way I am living now
Is a "efficient" way of living.
I seek to maximise my returns on living
Sounds very cold & callous;
But I guess that's really how I want to live
I want to give my finite resources to things & peoples
And have them bear fruit
Yet it seems that the things that I spend my time & effort on
doesn't seem to be having any effect
Am i giving my life away to things in a black hole?
Can I better do something else?
Or is it my lack of faith
That I don't see things bearing fruit?
I don't see it
And I don't feel it
So God, if I am wrong, could I ask for a sign?
A sign that I am doing the right things
That I am on the right path
Give me grace to grip on to
Give me your hand to hold on to
And lead me on..
Give me hope to believe
and to hang on & press forward
3/29/2010 12:13:00 AM
It saddens me to see what you are doing
Yet what can I do
but to worry and to let go
Only knowing
That whatever will happen will happen
And we can only be there for you then
and now too if you ever need us
I struggle to let go
I struggle to let you do whatever you are doing
Knowing that we can only support you in bearing the consequences;
Hoping that won't be too late
I struggle to see you as an equal
but you are
And I really have to learn to see that
And to let go
3/08/2010 01:44:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey