yet another day of memories...
About having an agenda when I meet people who are not of the same faith
Then God, I don’t want to be your child of this faith anymore.
I want to be a child that loves u freely
Who gives unselfishly, blindly behind a veil of ignorance.
God, it seems to me
That we struggle a lot nowadays
We struggle not to love you first above all things,
But we struggle to love you with our preconceptions of sins.
We lost the gist of what it means to love you and to love your children
We try to love, but the nagging thought of imperfection remains
“He is gay”, ‘He sleeps around”;“She is pregnant before marriage”
“They are not of the same faith”
In love, there should be no judgment, no questions
Just pure love and support
Yet we struggle
We struggle with loving your child
No questions asked
God we struggle to love without pity, without judgment
We know what it is to love given a flaw
But we don’t know how to love regardless of the flaw
No questions asked
We judge
We feel
We hesitate
We struggle
We just can’t love blindly like what You do
In judging, we get judged
In inflicting others pain, we are inflicted with pain ourselves
In rejecting others, we get rejected
And in denying others free love, the love we get is conditional.
Father when will this cycle end?
Why is it that in living in You, we try to be free
But our fellow brothers and sisters inhibit us?
Why are your children so cruel to one another?
Why do they begrudge us what they have?
Why Father do we not live truly as your children?
I really don’t think I want to be associated with your children anymore.
5/22/2008 12:30:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey