yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
Final lap of a pure student life
2 weeks left counting
The exam week next and then the results week
And in the midst of this study week,
I constantly find myself calculating the possibility
Guessing/anticipating how much I have gotten so far
Pushing my expectation of how much I need to get on the exam
I started off normally;
Lost track halfway cus it's so busy
But i knew from the start, it ll be a tough fight
3As and 1 A-
In order to fight back up to the second uppers
Now that I know my modules better,
I am hoping to go with 1A+, 1A and 2A-
Hoping that AFA can get me the A+
and that the rest can also give me what I need
And when doubt keeps setting in,
Honestly I have no idea how am I going to get the A & A-
And occasionally even asking myself if I can get A+
I find myself wanting to be contented with a second lower
But just, I see a tiny question asking me
Seeking to see if I will stretch my faith;
So yes Lord, I am.
I am going to do my best
And trust that you will do the rest
No question Lord.
I will believe and I trust that i will get it
No matter what others say and think,
My faith is in you
And I believe that you will deliver me.
5/30/2008 03:04:00 AM
About having an agenda when I meet people who are not of the same faith
Then God, I don’t want to be your child of this faith anymore.
I want to be a child that loves u freely
Who gives unselfishly, blindly behind a veil of ignorance.
God, it seems to me
That we struggle a lot nowadays
We struggle not to love you first above all things,
But we struggle to love you with our preconceptions of sins.
We lost the gist of what it means to love you and to love your children
We try to love, but the nagging thought of imperfection remains
“He is gay”, ‘He sleeps around”;“She is pregnant before marriage”
“They are not of the same faith”
In love, there should be no judgment, no questions
Just pure love and support
Yet we struggle
We struggle with loving your child
No questions asked
God we struggle to love without pity, without judgment
We know what it is to love given a flaw
But we don’t know how to love regardless of the flaw
No questions asked
We judge
We feel
We hesitate
We struggle
We just can’t love blindly like what You do
In judging, we get judged
In inflicting others pain, we are inflicted with pain ourselves
In rejecting others, we get rejected
And in denying others free love, the love we get is conditional.
Father when will this cycle end?
Why is it that in living in You, we try to be free
But our fellow brothers and sisters inhibit us?
Why are your children so cruel to one another?
Why do they begrudge us what they have?
Why Father do we not live truly as your children?
I really don’t think I want to be associated with your children anymore.
5/22/2008 12:30:00 AM
Sadness and grief in its most personal form
Can only be done in solitude.
No words can express how it feels
Perhaps God can understand;
But humans can't
Since there is really no words at all
to verbalise what happened
and why I feel the way I do.
5/21/2008 01:38:00 AM
when we think about it, there is really so little that we understand.
Whether it's a storm that passes one house and destroys another,
a war that seemingly has no end, or a church that sanctions exclusion,
we are left shaking our heads and wondering what it all means.
Wondering how we can possibly find you in the midst of the mess.
How long must we wander in this wilderness, O God?
How long must we ask to serve you and be told NO?
God who moved over the face of the waters and
who hovers still over the chaos of our lives,
we are weary of the noise.
We are tired of the cacophony of rattling sabers,
the endless distractions that shift our gaze to lines drawn in the sand,
to distinctions of mine and yours,
and to legal language of right and wrong
instead of words of love and grace and justice and mercy.
God who breathed life into fashioned clay,
breathe into us now that we may be formed into your people once again.
Quiet the storm within our denomination that the wave of your grace
may roll over us. Heal us and all those who suffer from oppressive measures
that we may find hope in this despair, pride in the shame of it all,
courage in our fear, and resolution in defeat.
Shift our eyes from a downward glance to
stars outshining the darkest nights.
Let us find water in the rock and life in dry bones.
Raise us once more to new life and make of us something strong and full of grace.
Free within us the courage to be vulnerable enough to offer a hand to clasp.
Heal us that we may be bread to eat, wine to share,
and mortal fools for your kingdom.
Fill us that we might be bold enough to take a stand,
or speak a word, or shed a tear, or to make again the decision to follow you
and, in so doing, that we will, by grace, come to life abundant
and come to dare, and come to hope and love your future in.
Amen.
Rev. Eric Folkerth
Northaven United Methodist Church
Sunday, May 4 2008
Author: Alicia Dean
Details can be found on: http://www.generalconference2008.org/2008/05/initial-thought.html
5/16/2008 01:16:00 PM
I decided that I should prepare for the bible study next monday.
In reading the commentary, I came across this
Coincidence or divinely prepared?
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One of the greatest obstacles to rebuilding broken relationships is simply fatigue.
We can easily lose heart and run out of strength
when we come up against the same problems over and over again
as we deal with others.
Even Paul sounds discouraged when
he talks about his efforts to rebuild his relationship with the Galatian believers:
"I fear for you, that somehow I have wasted my efforts on you" (4:11).
Paul recognized that fatigue and discouragement might
cause Christians to throw in the servant's towel and quit.
So he presents two incentives to keep us from giving up
when we grow weary of serving others in love.
First, he assures us of a reward for doing good:
at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up (v. 9).
Sometimes the harvest is experienced in this life.
When we sow acts of love, we reap a harvest of love in return.
When we give generously and sacrificially to the needs of others,
we reap a harvest of gratitude as those needs are met.
When we sow the seed of God's Word in needy lives,
we experience the joy of response.
But we must remember that reaping a harvest
almost never happens on the same day as sowing the seed.
We may not even see a harvest in this life from what we have sown.
Nevertheless, we must never give up,
because we know that at the proper time
our Master will return and reward
those who have been faithful servants.
I won't give up Lord
But I pray for your strength
And for perserverance
5/03/2008 02:37:00 AM
Not moving out, but maybe just stay in school library til closing
Avoidance doesn't solve the problem;
But when the problem can't be solved
Avoidance protects me
5/01/2008 12:10:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey