yet another day of memories...
Must say it really brightened up my day
Was my senior from SMU
Who left for Aussie to be with her gf
Thought we lost contact cuz rarely see her on MSN
And she is too busy to update her blog.
Still surprises never cease,
It was good catching up;
Though it took me a moment to realize who it was on the other line
Feels good to know that there are ppl out there
Looking out for me
Caring for me
That despite their busy lives,
they are concerned enough to check on me.
Thanks alot gal,
You have no idea how timely ur call is
As a reminder of that.
Din sleep well last night
Sister came home late
And started arguing with my mother
So there was this big hoo-ha
Cos basically mom was supposed to recuperate
And not supposed to be agitated
But sister being her typical personality
Had to be honest
And just voiced out all her opinions
Without giving in
So making Mom shout even louder
I tried staying out of it
Having been questioned by my mom earlier if I can not move out
(She asked me that after a mini-confrontation over the phone with sis)
Side track: I personally think my mom just needs to feel that she has control
Control over my sister and me
Which she tries to get over me
When she fails with my sister
Hence the moving out question.
I basically avoided it
I planned to move out (so I din want to lie and say no)
I merely said I need to sleep and let's talk abt it again
So coming back to the sister,
I thought I could pretend to ignore
And to go back to sleep
(no way am i getting involved & getting blamed in the process for my "part"
in agitating my mom just cuz i din say i wun move out)
But guess what,
I have no freaking whatsoever idea how
My sister just pulled my name in
Basically she just started shouting
"ask your daughter to come la; see you lydat she also never come out"
^^&*%%^&*%$^%
Have you ever felt like a innocent party being caught in the cross-fire?
I felt that way
Funny how the moving out issue never was an issue
It was never brought up until the hoo-ha with my sister
And then i suddenly became a daughter that fails
Nice
I feel a lot of anguish within me;
Even though it was last night
And it's now morning.
And now my dad called
So basically no one is free to bring my mom for check-up
Leaving me to do it
Which is okay.
And I will continue another time.
4/28/2008 12:59:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey