yet another day of memories...
And found this prayer that I really like.
So I edited the template of this blog slightly
In order to have it included.
It wasn't easy,
Especially for me who is bad in html.
And when tidying up today,
The quote that I normally put on the blog front
Kinda hit me.
"Courage is not an absence of fear;
But the willingness to face up to the circumstances despite the fear"
I guess this is relevant to me now.
Juls ask me if I am honestly okay;
Or I am scared.
Honestly, I would say that I don't know if I fear
But I know that instinctively I cannot afford to fear
Simply cuz fear is paralyzing
But is it really true?
Guess not.
Perhaps it's okay to fear.
Having to sum up courage to cope with what happened,
doesn't imply that fear doesn't exist;
But rather that I have the strength to face up to it.
No matter what happens.
The ultrasound showed that I have 4 lumps
2 on each side
2 (1 on each side)seems to be cystic in nature,
And the size doesn't warrant any attention for now.
Doctor says to just observe,
And to do an ultrasound every six months.
Honestly, is this the best alternative?
I don't know. But Doctor says..
So who am I to know better?
Maybe, it's instances like this that I feel inadequate.
That my knowledge seems to be lacking.
The other two,
Nature indeterminate.
How that word seems to offer hope,
But yet seems so intimidating at the same time.
Guess I just never deal well with uncertainty.
Need to learn to bid my time
Have to go for biopsy tomorrow
No idea how that will work out
Will only know next week.
Yupz, another week of waiting
And bidding my time.
I got to learn
4/10/2008 01:03:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey