yet another day of memories...
Heart still pattering/pounding away. =(
I like to think that I have logic,
But after taking this test,
Maybe my brand of logic ain what's suitable for the banks.
Have tried a few verbal tests for a couple of banks,
Somehow my applications seem to just stop at this stage.
Even though this time round there ain a verbal test yet,
The logical test was bad enough
To cause a dent in my ego.
The initial numerical test was fairly challenging
Felt a lil-worried, but managed to tell myself
To leave everything to God
Not really comforting self,
But in a way, I don't want to "qiang-qiu" what is not meant to be mine.
So was very thankful that I managed to get to the next round
But bah, the logic test was very very challenging
Halfway through can feel my heart jumping fast
Adrenaline rushing through,
and still trying to think & get myself to breathe and calm down
Okay, this may sound exaggerating,
But gosh, bleags experience
Hopefully some good comes out of it;
Else it's still okay =)
God provides =)
Kinda sianz of all these tests,
But if I encounter them again,
Just have to try hard to take them in the positive spirit.
Oh yes, and speaking of adrenaline rushes
I had another yesterday; and the day before
Talk about too much hormonal rush!
Juls & I headed to Sentosa on Sunday
For a getaway before school starts next week.
Thanks to Sh who had cable car tickets,
We managed to get to Sentosa in a very non-conventional way
Despite both of us having a fear of heights
which for me includes soft legs
(I am not kidding, you feel numbness and it's wobbly)
We felt that the tickets were too good to be wasted
So off we went up the glass lift to the 15th floor
And took the cable car in.
The ride in was still okay by me;
perhaps cuz I had my back to what was coming.
Other than the initial fear and the heart pounding like crazy,
I managed to enjoy the scenery diagonally below.
(It's not possible to look straight down;
I tried a glance and nearly gasped)
We had a great time then in Sentosa
(which I will post on later)
Then yesterday even though we had free tickets on the train back too,
We decided to not waste the cable car tickets
(typical singaporean style!)
and use them since they were round trip
"Bad decision" initially!
We sat in the direction that we were going
So I could see all that was to come;
Including that big pillar that was right in front of us.
Coupled with the wind breeze
That ruffled our hair
and swayed us slightly from side to side,
it was enough to make me panic
Had to keep forcing myself to take deep breaths
And to slow down my heart beating like crazy
I wanted so badly to bang on the cable car doors and go back to the starting point!
But obviously there was no way backward,
So I just sat very still.
Poor Juls was forbidded to move
Or make any sound that would unseat me further
Credit has to be given though;
Cos she tried very badly to assure me
Even to the extent of wanting to forgo the Mount Faber Part
and just alight at Harbourfront.
Of cos typical Singaporean style,
I refused.
And though I was still terrified,
The rest of the ride went fine.
Just breathing and a mental struggle to stay calm,
I am glad we went through with it.
The view is really good =]
THanks alot SH for the tickets!
You have been a blessing to us..
And in the meantime,
I think I had enough of fast-heart-pittering moments..
TIme to hit the books =)
2/19/2008 03:58:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey