yet another day of memories...
I cry;
I talk to my only fwen if she is free;
I blast my music through earphones;
And I brood.. alot.
Which makes things worse,
Cos many a times,
It's the things I brood about that makes me unhappy.
I dislike the sense of helplessness,
Of interdependency,
That my emotions and feelings swing
because of people & issues that affect me.
But then again,"To love at all is to be vulnerable.
Love anything and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken.
If you want to make sure of keeping it intact,
you must give your heart to no one,
not even to an animal.
Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries . . .
lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.
But in that casket
-- safe, dark, motionless, airless--
it will change.
It will not be broken;
it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable
The only place outside heaven
where you can be perfectly safe
from all the dangers of love is hell."
So to love, I must hurt.
How ironical.. but oh well..
So then..
the music keeps blasting,
The volume keeps increasing..
And oh yes, what I do when I am unhappy..
All happens together.
10/26/2007 03:17:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey