Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Post-School Starting
I guess that it is pretty obvious
that I am no longer updating my blog as often.
This has always been a way for me to vent out what I feel;
To share my joys
And my sorrows,
And of course to show my appreciation to people
That in reality, I might not be able to express appropriately.
Am i having less joys,
less sorrows and less people to thank?
Not really..
It's just that I am getting too packed.
Honestly if you ask how am I coping,
I dont really know what to say.
I can't say yes,
Cus the way that my weeks are packed,
makes me worried about whether I can keep up my studies,
and earn the money from the tuitions & work
And if I were to give up my jobs,
well, that would bring in another set of issues.
I can' say no either..
Cuz somehow I feel that I have to try,
maybe sleep a lil less,
work a lil harder
push myself a bit further..
maybe all these will add up and work
It doesn't help now that some things work against me
Like my printer that refuses to print last night
And i spent 2 hrs trying to get it to work.
That is 2 hours less of sleep
I just pray that things can go my way,
so I can shave hours, minutes and even seconds off
That will make my life easier.
And hopefully, that decreases stress,
which will make my ezcema better.
Yupz.. somehow having a bad bout of that now
On hands, and especially legs.
I have taken to wearing jeans,
and that is no good
cos my jeans are limited in quantity
Plus all the cream that I have to put etc..
Sighz, extra time wasted..
oh well, at least the itch has gone away
So that is extra sleep that I can get
But i am okie..
all these just gives me more opportunities to appreciate others =)
yet another day of memories...
8/29/2007 03:18:00 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Additional Maths, Life Phrases and Passwords!
With only 15 minutues to go,
I had this inner urge to just write out what I have been up to.
Been in Bangkok for a week,
I know many would say that's insanely long for a holiday;
But funny how the brain seems to work better;
Your emotional state gets more in-tuned with your self
When you are away for a prolonged period of time
With no need to hurry away to earn more $$.
Despite me saying many times,
I am okay,
I guess this is the final and clear indication that I am okay.
While I found myself asking alot of what-ifs when I was there
"what if I had the exchange as planned?"
"what if Ieconomize on this and that.. can i actually have had the exchange?"
And then arriving at the same conclusion as before
That things will not happen;
Simply because I would not be able to have that kind of money now.
But that's not the key
And that's not the focus of everything.
The bottomline is, I am here now
In Singapore,
Among loved ones and friends.
I can dwell on what I would have missed out;
But that will not change the fact that I am here.
I can do so much more
If I just remember that, and think of what I can do.
So well =) I came home knowing how better to appreciate
my situation, my friends and my loved ones.
So no more "what-ifs"; just "what-next" =)
And on a lighter note,
I totally forgot remainder and factor thereom!
*faints..
So thankfully with the new tuition job,
I get to recollect my A-maths and E-maths stuff..
Just hopefully I don't disgrace myself in front of the student =)
And seriously, I think I am getting a lil old
Always forgetting my passwords and usernames nowadays.
Take blogging for example.
I spent 5 mins before realizing that oh yes..
Blogger has changed to g-mail sign in..
Hopefully when sch starts,
All this forgetfulness will be forgotten,
And i will start to remember things =)
oh well.. the delightful contradiction of life.!
yet another day of memories...
8/15/2007 07:44:00 PM