yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
that I am no longer updating my blog as often.
This has always been a way for me to vent out what I feel;
To share my joys
And my sorrows,
And of course to show my appreciation to people
That in reality, I might not be able to express appropriately.
Am i having less joys,
less sorrows and less people to thank?
Not really..
It's just that I am getting too packed.
Honestly if you ask how am I coping,
I dont really know what to say.
I can't say yes,
Cus the way that my weeks are packed,
makes me worried about whether I can keep up my studies,
and earn the money from the tuitions & work
And if I were to give up my jobs,
well, that would bring in another set of issues.
I can' say no either..
Cuz somehow I feel that I have to try,
maybe sleep a lil less,
work a lil harder
push myself a bit further..
maybe all these will add up and work
It doesn't help now that some things work against me
Like my printer that refuses to print last night
And i spent 2 hrs trying to get it to work.
That is 2 hours less of sleep
I just pray that things can go my way,
so I can shave hours, minutes and even seconds off
That will make my life easier.
And hopefully, that decreases stress,
which will make my ezcema better.
Yupz.. somehow having a bad bout of that now
On hands, and especially legs.
I have taken to wearing jeans,
and that is no good
cos my jeans are limited in quantity
Plus all the cream that I have to put etc..
Sighz, extra time wasted..
oh well, at least the itch has gone away
So that is extra sleep that I can get
But i am okie..
all these just gives me more opportunities to appreciate others =)
8/29/2007 03:18:00 PM
I had this inner urge to just write out what I have been up to.
Been in Bangkok for a week,
I know many would say that's insanely long for a holiday;
But funny how the brain seems to work better;
Your emotional state gets more in-tuned with your self
When you are away for a prolonged period of time
With no need to hurry away to earn more $$.
Despite me saying many times,
I am okay,
I guess this is the final and clear indication that I am okay.
While I found myself asking alot of what-ifs when I was there
"what if I had the exchange as planned?"
"what if Ieconomize on this and that.. can i actually have had the exchange?"
And then arriving at the same conclusion as before
That things will not happen;
Simply because I would not be able to have that kind of money now.
But that's not the key
And that's not the focus of everything.
The bottomline is, I am here now
In Singapore,
Among loved ones and friends.
I can dwell on what I would have missed out;
But that will not change the fact that I am here.
I can do so much more
If I just remember that, and think of what I can do.
So well =) I came home knowing how better to appreciate
my situation, my friends and my loved ones.
So no more "what-ifs"; just "what-next" =)
And on a lighter note,
I totally forgot remainder and factor thereom!
*faints..
So thankfully with the new tuition job,
I get to recollect my A-maths and E-maths stuff..
Just hopefully I don't disgrace myself in front of the student =)
And seriously, I think I am getting a lil old
Always forgetting my passwords and usernames nowadays.
Take blogging for example.
I spent 5 mins before realizing that oh yes..
Blogger has changed to g-mail sign in..
Hopefully when sch starts,
All this forgetfulness will be forgotten,
And i will start to remember things =)
oh well.. the delightful contradiction of life.!
8/15/2007 07:44:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey