yet another day of memories...
You would know what kind of conflict I am facing.
For those who din,
Let's just say I wouldn't wish this situation on you;
Or on anyone for that matter.
Maybe it's just me being self-righteous
Maybe it's me making a fuss.
But I truly believe in the value of truth
and in personal integrity.
I want to thank my parents for making this
A core part of whom I am.
Don't expect me to lie without feeling guilt;
Don't expect me to feel that nothing is wrong.
I have to speak up when I don't feel that it's right.
Yes, right is a subjective word,
And what is wrong for me, may be acceptable to you.
Nonetheless, if i don't act on what I deem is wrong,
I will be, in a way, consenting & collaborating
and condoning what you do.
Now that I have done what I can do,
i am just waiting for God
for Him to decide what happens next,
and what is my next course of action.
It's not easy coming to this stage,
seeking help when I am not sure
of the consequences.
Still, I guess I am prepared.
Come what may, good or bad.
At least I can now live with myself.
I don't have to grapple within,
trying to come to terms with the deceit I had
I feel more liberated now
After I told people about it.
Guess "The truth will set you free"
Is really literally true.
And the verses during today's communion just affirmed me
It assured me and gave me strength:
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled."
"Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
I have faith
And I know that no matter what,
I am glad I did what I did.
And thanks for the many friends,
family and loved ones
Who stood by me,
And told me I am doing the right thing.
It's much easier having all your support.
I thank God for this difficult time,
For only in situations like that,
Then I can see and feel
Your strength, Your blessings
The people who care and love
The people who mean something to me
Who will stand by me,
and support me.
I am glad.. I am thankful
And i will keep praying
For a good end to this matter.
Thank you ppl,
Those who encouraged me
Who showed me concern.
Especially to Leon, Jorin, Julia and Jeremy
Thanks so much for everything.
5/21/2007 12:21:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey