yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
I had a most wonderful birthday =)
Even though I had to work,
I had the best gift from God.
Hee, my boss din go in to work that day,
So it was really a glorious, peaceful time
And i totally enjoyed that day.
From 12 midnight onwards,
I had a steady stream of wishes by sms.
First of course is my best best only fwen, Jo!
She is indeed my closest closest friend.
Then after was Jeff, and my best junior!
Hee.. all these came in before I slept. =)
On the day itself, I had a great dinner
With Emo, and Jaime..
Organized by Julia;
At my favourite Japanese Salmon Don place =)
I bought a present for myself too..
A prayer book that cost $3 only =)
Then after cell group,
we cut my birthday cake..
And took lots of pics =)
Heh, it was my favourite cake,
and the girls enjoyed it too.
Thanks Julia again for getting it!
To think she asked me what flavour cake i liked,
And i din even realize why she asked!
Thanks also to Jaime and Jin,
who got me a present..
Unexpected! and totally sweet..
it's meant for my exchange too =)
And also thanks to Emo..
Who got me a pretty pen..
But no thanks for printing a label on it,
that says "Cindy"..
Then when I got home..
I had another birthday cake..
From Mommy and Daddy,
Totally pretty cake..
=)
So yepz.. blessed Wednesday..
And more on Sat,
Which I will blog another time..
Bed time now! =)
5/28/2007 02:09:00 AM
You would know what kind of conflict I am facing.
For those who din,
Let's just say I wouldn't wish this situation on you;
Or on anyone for that matter.
Maybe it's just me being self-righteous
Maybe it's me making a fuss.
But I truly believe in the value of truth
and in personal integrity.
I want to thank my parents for making this
A core part of whom I am.
Don't expect me to lie without feeling guilt;
Don't expect me to feel that nothing is wrong.
I have to speak up when I don't feel that it's right.
Yes, right is a subjective word,
And what is wrong for me, may be acceptable to you.
Nonetheless, if i don't act on what I deem is wrong,
I will be, in a way, consenting & collaborating
and condoning what you do.
Now that I have done what I can do,
i am just waiting for God
for Him to decide what happens next,
and what is my next course of action.
It's not easy coming to this stage,
seeking help when I am not sure
of the consequences.
Still, I guess I am prepared.
Come what may, good or bad.
At least I can now live with myself.
I don't have to grapple within,
trying to come to terms with the deceit I had
I feel more liberated now
After I told people about it.
Guess "The truth will set you free"
Is really literally true.
And the verses during today's communion just affirmed me
It assured me and gave me strength:
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled."
"Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
I have faith
And I know that no matter what,
I am glad I did what I did.
And thanks for the many friends,
family and loved ones
Who stood by me,
And told me I am doing the right thing.
It's much easier having all your support.
I thank God for this difficult time,
For only in situations like that,
Then I can see and feel
Your strength, Your blessings
The people who care and love
The people who mean something to me
Who will stand by me,
and support me.
I am glad.. I am thankful
And i will keep praying
For a good end to this matter.
Thank you ppl,
Those who encouraged me
Who showed me concern.
Especially to Leon, Jorin, Julia and Jeremy
Thanks so much for everything.
5/21/2007 12:21:00 AM
But just thought would write down updates for now.
Internship is fine.
All i can say is I have a daily battle
Sometimes more intense,
sometimes just a soft tug of war within.
It's just an issue of personal integrity
versus doing what we have to do.
Sighz..
If it's a job,
I know I will want to walk away.
But given that in reality,
not everything goes the way we want,
I guess this situation really makes me question
What if it happens again next time?
Integrity or survival?
On a lighter note,
The bangkok exchange now seems more real.
Submitted my application form,
And bought my insurance.
Now searching for accomodation
And air ticket.
Can't decide if I will fly back in between
Am tempted to, but as usual,
Money is always the issue.
Sighz =(
I really wish I can come back in between.
And special thanks goes to veron!
Who helped this ditzy girl here
Identify the appropriate ticket type
I dread it when they have Jet-saver & Jet-flex;
I-fare and A-fare.
I can never tell the difference
And I cannot just hatum..
Oh well, thank God for friends who can help =)
Yepz.. come this friday,
will be 4 weeks through internship..
looking to the end!
=)
And i hope my only friend is enjoying herself in taiwan
Miss you!
5/16/2007 01:45:00 AM
8 weeks more to internship end;
I realize how precious weekends can be.
It's that glimmer of hope
that yet another week will come to pass
And that brief respite
That one gets to renew their energy for the week to come.
I never thought that I would dislike something so much
To the extent that I really live,
with the end firmly in mind
And as a source of hope.
It's not all that bad;
Just the occasional stress
And anxiety that gets to me.
Nonetheless, it's bad
Cuz I have never felt this way about anything before.
Previously, I may dislike something
But never this strong
Oh well, I am still striving
Thank God for entertaining colleagues
And the strength to continue.
I just pray I get used to it,
and not lost in it.
Anyway, been enjoying my weekends.
Photos of Rawa are up in the yahoo link
If you can't crack the code and locate it on this blog,
Drop me a message.
Other than that,
Been tidying up loose stuff
Managing my finances and all.
As usual, that's a lil tight
But still coping fine.
Reading the papers too;
All the recent debates about homosexuality
I couldnt help but wonder what my parents think
What their thoughts are,
especially since now that I am out to them.
Will they stick to their moral stand
And disapprove too,
at the expense of rejecting their daughter?
Or would they be relieved and glad
that society may now accept their daughter locally?
I don't really know.
I can only hope.
5/06/2007 01:45:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey