yet another day of memories...
You have happy memories;
but you learn to shed your innocence.
I grew up being cynical,
Humans are too complex to trust easily.
But slowly I learn to love;
And accept.
I learnt to give others space as I grow,
Knowing that they too need to grow.
I learnt to accept
Yes, we are different;
We don't have to be the same.
You have the space to be You.
It is then a struggle
When people don't give me the space to be me.
Expectations of who i should be and what I shd do.
Mom, I am lesbian.
While I accept that you are homophobic
And will love me less because you think i am imperfect
Being gay,
I struggle to accept
that I don't have the space to be who I truly am.
I am not going to mould myself into the cast you set for me.
I want to be what God wants me to be.
If I am to be straight, let it be God's will and plan.
Let Him tell me and mould me.
In growing up, i learn that there are tradeoffs
Something to be obtained
Implies something to be given up.
Could it be then that to have the space I need,
To protect myself from hurt,
and to preserve my own sanity,
I need to be away from the family?
Could it be
that I need and should move out?
1/16/2007 02:38:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey