yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
When feeling overwhelmed, pray to God;
When feeling sad, praise God.
When feeling needy/or that you are lacking,
trust in God.
Always remember that you have total forgiveness
That you are God's child
With His love and him providing for you;
Watching over you,
things are never as bad as we always imagine.
Friends are God's blessings in our life.
To cope with difficult times,
Make sure you accumulate these blessings,
and they will see you through =)
8/28/2006 02:12:00 AM
Meaningful cos he was the one who helped me
Through a rough time in school.
Thanks so much
And may this help others in need too. =)Happiness is not someting you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. By Jim Rohn.
8/24/2006 07:22:00 PM
About my withdrawing from something
That I had committed to 5 months back.
5 months ago, I din know that my financial security will not last that long
5 months ago, I din know that I will have to end up working, just to make ends meet
5 months ago, I really din know what kind of situation I will be in now.
I did what I did at the moment
With the decision made
Based on the information I had.
I evaluated my situation then;
And I could commit.
5 months later, situation changes
I now had more updated information about my life
And I am forced to re-evaluate my commitments.
Is it then wrong to try to undo the damage I could potentially cause
If I just chose to carry on with the commitments I made,
Knowing full well that I cannot fulfill them?
That is exactly what I am receiving pressure for.
And sadly.. people don't really care why.
They just care about what you have done,
Or left undone.
Who can understand me?
When in sorrow, worship God
I believe it helps
8/22/2006 02:36:00 AM
Yet I will still be working.
Am performing this work-study stunt til week 12
and exams are in week 15.
My first attempt holding a office job with school;
I dunno if its insane,
Or I will instead do better,
For the lack of time to slack.
I seriously hope its the latter.
I don't have the luxury of forgoing the job.
Afterall, my finances are barely getting into the black
even with work.
So don't even think of savings.
And the annoying thing is that I am not that spendthrift.
I occasionally pamper myself,
But even that now, I have to watch myself.
I guess.. this is but reality.
Reality of financial independence.
In a way, this does get to me.
i really wish I cld just be a student.
Study as much as I like;
Be a peer helper..
Just hold a temp job in school
on W Study Grant..
But no.. as long as the pay is good,
and I get the bonus at the end;
i really just have to perform juggling acts
And be a survivor.
Hopefully the extra job in school
(yes, another job)
will not be that time consuming
Since 3 of us are sharing it.
Hopefully i get time off
Hopefully i don't get burnt out
And hopefully I do well enough
To be on Dean's list once again
And do myself justice.
Hopefully..
8/19/2006 11:45:00 PM
About the student who passed away
From a car crash.
I don't know him;
But being in a small school community,
It does hit you in a way.
Somehow.. I feel the loss.
Loss of a junior..
Of someone who has and will make a difference.
It makes me question myself harder
What is my identity?
What is my role in society, in the community?
If you lose me tml,
What kind of an eulogy will you write for me?
How many of u will ache and cry?
How many will weep and wish that you had more time with me?
And if the last time we met was ages ago,
Was it because I never made the time for you?
That you were always waiting,
And I could never meet u.
Or was it that we both were just too caught up
In our own lives.. our own commitments?
Have our lives intertwined and then along the way,
started branching out in different directions?
And even if we had met today,
Was the time we spent together,
The way you would have wanted it..
For a last memory of me?
Would it be a cherished time,
Or just a superficial meet-up,
where our lives just converged momentarily
On the surface,
But no depth was touched?
A day has only 24 hrs;
We each have our own responsibilities to fulfill;
Duties to do.
But I promise that as long as you do ur part,
I will do mine.
I will make the time we spend quality time,
If you put in the same effort.
I will commit to growing our friendship/relationship
As long as you commit too..
For ultimately dears,
It's not a lone road anywhere.
I love you all..
But if you all just rest on ur laurels,
Then don't expect me on the other end..
And then should anything happen to me,
I know what kind of reaction I will get from you.
8/08/2006 02:31:00 AM
From head to toe,
A manicure & pedicure
Thrown in with spa treatment
Will be desired.
Cynthia has managed to clear half of her backlog.
Reports x2 are not done yet
And Cynthia has yet to organise her Cambodia photos,
as well as her Drive C
So she is not really ready for school.
Cynthia has many meetings next week
But what she longs to do is to curl up in bed
With a book
And candles all around.
Cynthia is really fantasizing about a break..
A break that is unlikely to come.
Brrr...
8/05/2006 02:28:00 AM
That perhaps like the character,
I lost many moments
To the struggles to "win" in life.
Post-Click made me promise myself
That I must try harder to stop and take breaks;
To have kit-kats
And to smell the roses.
But Post-Click was also reality time.
After the shower came the need to check emails.
Emails led to work work work time.
Led to the need to jot down the things to do;
And the need to find time to cram them all in.
Not working tomorrow
Cos having PH mtg with Tim
And interviews with the potential PH.
Thought would be nice to spend time with her..
Hopefully we just have to make-do
And that she will remember my Post-Click wish.
Wishes are wishes..
Inspirations are inspirations
That reality might not allow one to fulfill.
Weekend is here.. but it's a time of meetings
And writing school reports.
May I find the time to unwind..
And stick to my social dates
So that I will not be all that rat-raced
I wish I can just be a student.
8/04/2006 02:35:00 AM
i am back!
My blog is now alive again!
And i am proud to say,
My photo album is updated!
21st pictures are finally up!
After 2 mths and a few days..
to be exact.
Many thanks goes to Tey,
Who figured my extra slash in the template,
Without which, my blog would have been
"attempted-to-revive-but-failed"
Courtesy of me.
*yawns.. i need my sleep
8/02/2006 02:37:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey