yet another day of memories...
I did not come out to my parents prior to my last post.
I did it on Sunday,
And ever since then,
Not a day passes that I have no tears on my face.
I am sick of defending myself
I am tired of standing for my own beliefs.
Neither do I want to conform
Be what you want me to be,
And just give up on who i really am.
It's not my friends that have led me onto this path;
It's not the schools that I go to that moulded me this way.
I know you think that just because of what I am,
My own education is ruined;
All the achievements I got before
All to naught.
Am i still your daughter?
I don't feel so.
All i get reminded of at home is that
I am not obedient;
I am hurting you all.
I just don't listen.
Any idea that i cry because of what you say?
Any idea that i am hurting so badly inside too?
No one does.
I feel so alone
3/22/2006 04:17:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey