yet another day of memories...
Thought that having a picnic at Botanic Gardens was unique
But then again, I was not 100% happy with the idea..
For a long time, I was unable to find the reason behind that.
Now I know..
A picnic can be given at any time.
What sets it apart for my 21st?
What is the special link?
None
None at all.. =[
And so I decide,
That 21st being the symbol of independence;
I should do something that illustrates that.
And I am decided..
I am flying to Canada;
Visit my friends there,
Plus check out UBC where I am thinking of taking an exchange.
Taking a flight on my own;
A trifle terrifying
But I think I can do it.
Planning my own accomodation;
Handling everything on my own,
Thats what I call independence.
Sourcing around for contacts,
Making sure that I have seen to everything that needs me to,
Setting up back up plans,
Ensuring that I will survive
Thats what comes with independence
Been toying with the idea;
Finally decided to take some action
Accomodation found;
Ticket prices realised;
Dates set
But guess what..
Mom doesnt even want to talk to me
I understand her reservations;
I understand her fears..
I am scared too;
But i need to do this
For myself;
For my own beliefs
And survival
Its a need, apart from a want
Do you, as my friend, understand me?
Parents need to realise this;
That we can't hide under their apron strings for life
To teach your kids survival
Is to let them learn how to fall
Again and again
Not prevent them from falling at all;
Nor prevent them from falling after once.
Sighz..
All the joy marred by these unhappiness
12/17/2005 06:05:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey