yet another day of memories...
How all our lives,
people are simply constantly fighting their fears;
Or fleeing away from them.
I have my own struggles to deal with too
I fear.. being lonely emotionally
Not knowing how to cope with negative feelings;
Not knowing who to turn to
Yet needing to let it all out
I fear.. being numb to all feelings
A solution to avoiding the emotional loneliness
But yet being unfeeling removes the very root of what makes me
I fear.. being cynical to the point that I don't trust
Then again.. what if I trust too easily..
That will only bring myself unnecessary hurt
*Oh.. what a thin line I have to tread
I fear.. being hurt so much so that I can't even cry it out
Surely it must be very painful then,
To hide all the emotions behind a mask.
And not be able to let it all surface
But my greatest fear of all..
Is that I will not be able to conquer all these fears.
12/14/2005 03:17:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey