yet another day of memories...
People can't hurt you.. unless you allow them to
And so I don't blame you
For I can only blame myself
How true,
For it was I who let you in
Practically handed you the weapon
The weapon that is most lethal
And will deal me for sure the hardest blow.
Yet its not the wound that hurts
It's the knowledge that, once again
Trust has been betrayed
And that the last person
I would ever imagine
To hurt me
Would do just so,
And intentionally too.
Never in my wildest dreams
But now its reality
Perhaps, the world is dead to trust
Perhaps, I should never have let down my guard
But the worse of all to come,
Is that I still want to trust you
Allow myself to get battered;
Allow the tears to come
Oh please, myself
Let your protective instincts take thyself
Cut your losses
And allow no more hurt
Pull yourself out from this hole you have dug
In dilemma, I weep
9/22/2005 12:48:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey