yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
Unofficially of course..
Can't believe I did this =]
All 'coz Hotel 81 refused an interview
I thus sent an email
Pretending to be a Thai tourist
Signed off as Thum Hiral
Went to the extent of changing my sender's name even
Just to realise that my email address is as local as can be!
Got la.. lehs.. & lors..
Oh man!
Hope my fake identity works!
9/27/2005 01:35:00 PM
I give up being in self denial
I admit it..
I am stressed!~
I know everyone else is too,
So just let me rant here.
Work, choices, things to do
I am up to my neck
And still I have to keep going
Allocating time for everything
And anything that comes my way;
And still have to squeeze out time for more
Deciding whether or not to skip class
So as to prepare for my interview.
Not wanting to miss yet another lesson;
but the interview is a freaking 20%
Yes! One fifth of my module grade
Keep thinking of if i miss the class..
Then I can have the morning to get ready
No need to rush;
Can be all prepared & focused.
Yet another part is arguing:
"I can make it for both"
Maybe it will be a tight squeeze
Maybe it will be a little risk
But I should just do it this way
*Panics* *Groanz*
What should i do?
9/26/2005 12:00:00 AM
People can't hurt you.. unless you allow them to
And so I don't blame you
For I can only blame myself
How true,
For it was I who let you in
Practically handed you the weapon
The weapon that is most lethal
And will deal me for sure the hardest blow.
Yet its not the wound that hurts
It's the knowledge that, once again
Trust has been betrayed
And that the last person
I would ever imagine
To hurt me
Would do just so,
And intentionally too.
Never in my wildest dreams
But now its reality
Perhaps, the world is dead to trust
Perhaps, I should never have let down my guard
But the worse of all to come,
Is that I still want to trust you
Allow myself to get battered;
Allow the tears to come
Oh please, myself
Let your protective instincts take thyself
Cut your losses
And allow no more hurt
Pull yourself out from this hole you have dug
In dilemma, I weep
9/22/2005 12:48:00 AM
Studying, yet I am not studying
Contradictions it may seem
Yet it is not
Let's take a moment to dwell
As products position themselves in the marketplace
So do we humans need to.
Who am I?
What do I need?
What should I do to achieve it?
It's easy to drift
To have many wants
& attempt to accomplish them all.
But is it possible?
No, not at the expense of what is forgone.
I need a moment to think
To re-position myself
And to do the things,
That ll allow me to get
What I really want most.
1. Academic results & Dean's List
2. A social life
3. Tuition commitments
4. Interaction as a campus tour guide
Everything seems to be so desired
That nothing seems worthy of trashing
Yet if I really cannot manage,
What should be the first to go?
I still dunno
9/14/2005 09:16:00 PM
Is it that I no longer think deep;
Or that I just dun jot them down?
I wish I could qualify both as reasons
But yet, they sound like excuses
Talk about time management:
I seem to be watching television;
Socialising and having leisure.
It's week 3 and work is piling up
But thankfully I am learning to work and stay calm doing so.
No longer feeling panic attacks
But instead revising bit by bit
Handling assignments, projects as they come
Social events though seem never to reduce
Should it be a =] or =[ reaction then?
I guess I am letting the tide take me
When the current is strong
But once the current subsides,
I ll take over and fight back.
I just need to bid my time..
And pace myself out well.
Its like those human rights
We constantly fight for them
We just need to stand firm
And stay strong..
Like this:
9/06/2005 05:39:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey