yet another day of memories...
I question myself as to what I am doing
Why am I fighting to hold onto my position
Constantly feeling unhappy about things
And worrying about how they ll develop?
Someone once told me not to harden my emotional self
Yet if I were not to become a egg in boiling water,
What should I be then?
The carrot that softens with time
And one day loses itself in the water?
Sure, some says to be like the coffee bean,
Let the boiling water spread my aroma
But how do I do that?
Who wants to smell my aroma &
What good does that do for me?
I feel myself losing steam
Swimming against the tide
And yet ebbing away with its direction
Nonetheless, people still view me as swimming
I dunno what to do
but to just carry on
No time to think & reflect
Shall do that in the weekend.
8/30/2005 11:50:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey