yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
yet another day of memories...
I question myself as to what I am doing
Why am I fighting to hold onto my position
Constantly feeling unhappy about things
And worrying about how they ll develop?
Someone once told me not to harden my emotional self
Yet if I were not to become a egg in boiling water,
What should I be then?
The carrot that softens with time
And one day loses itself in the water?
Sure, some says to be like the coffee bean,
Let the boiling water spread my aroma
But how do I do that?
Who wants to smell my aroma &
What good does that do for me?
I feel myself losing steam
Swimming against the tide
And yet ebbing away with its direction
Nonetheless, people still view me as swimming
I dunno what to do
but to just carry on
No time to think & reflect
Shall do that in the weekend.
8/30/2005 11:50:00 PM
Am so glad its finally over;
Same goes for all the weekend-tummy rumbling;
Running to the loo and liquid-detoxing
Wanting to but unable to puke
Feeling all so sick
*bleags..*
Maybe its nerves that brought it all up
Something similar happened last year
Near exam time
Hope this assumption is wrong
It can't happen again
Wellwell and I din get lost today =]
Class started late though,
Cuz my prof got lost
Yep.. so profs do get lost too.
Din know anyone in the class
But hopefully that changes
Was expecting business process to be more economic-fied
But guess what.. the textbook says "Factory Physics"
*groans*
Maybe the title is just a metaphor,
Maybe..
8/23/2005 12:52:00 AM
Will be starting school in a few days time
But have already been on campus these few days.
It really feels good,
Though the school is not as easily accessible as it seems
(I know, I've been walking in circles)
Eyeing potential study spots in the library,
Planning to go to the gym,
And realising that there is indeed a swimming pool
(Just that its on admin's rooftop, so more beneficial to staff)
Not forgetting, asking those in summer term and finding out where the cheapest food near campus is,
And of cos, being all geared up to study and mug
Yupz.. I can't wait to study and use my brain cells;
Drawing colourful mindmaps and learning new knowledge
School, here I come!
8/18/2005 12:47:00 AM
Interviewed for Merchandising Rep
And I scored it
Gave it up in the end
Don't think I can handle otherwise
With tuition, Peer Helping, Guitar, Little League & most importantly,
my academic studies
My opportunity cost it is
For a chance to keep my name on the Dean's List
*Tell me my reasoning is right*
8/16/2005 12:41:00 AM
Thought I screwed up my recent interviews
But thankfully I got through.
Managed to get the Faciliation module
And also the City Campus Tour Guide job
That I really wanted
Then again.. life ain a bed of roses
Read "Tuesdays with Morrie"?
I like a theory particularly
One about the tension of 2 opposite sides
Describing about how in life, there is always 2 sides
One with what you want to do,
And one with what you have to do.
Sadly, they may be on 2 opposites side as the theory goes.
Getting the things I want,
Means having obligations to follow through for them
And then it means giving up other things that I want to do
Life is full of choices;
But at times one just have to do what one has to
As I make my choices to make one pursuit over the other
I pray my friends will understand
The reduced time I spend with you all.
Ain that you aren't important
Ain that you mean less
It's just that I can't sacrifice this for you
Cos giving it up will mean that I can never forgive myself
For giving up something that I wanted so much
And prayed so hard for
I hope you understand
And when people say that "Success is lonely",
I can shake my head, smile and say
"I have my friends"
8/13/2005 02:08:00 AM
Why i do the things I do.
Its tiring to make others happy
8/12/2005 01:30:00 AM
And so it begins..
40 minutes after our nation turned 40. =]
Boy.. i miss those days of preparing for parade
Then standing at attention tomorrow;
Listening to the crowd cheer,
And as the patriotic songs blasted in the background..
I would feel proud.
Proud to be a Singaporean..
& Proud to be in the National Day Parade.
But oh well.. I am too old
rejected as parade material,
tomorrow i shall attempt to run =]
Yepz.. am relay-running as part of the celebrations tml.
I hope I can make it
I must mojo myself not to give up
Complete the 1.7 km run from Clementi to Dover.
*Pray for me..
The past few trial runs on my own have been bad
Pray hard that I can make it tomorrow.
I simply must..
For its my Nation's birthday!
8/09/2005 02:38:00 AM
And you love it so much that you wish it would never end??
But then as it progresses on, it hits a point where things become boring
Or even dreary?
Then we wonder,
Should we continue to persist and read on?
In the hope that things will pick up;
Take a gamble..
Maybe things ll liven up again,
Maybe we ll adapt to the boring tone
Maybe the story ll never pick up & we ll never adapt..
Or perhaps we should just stop at the introduction
Leaving behind good memories of what the book has been
And of what we imagine might possibly come after
Maybe...
I am amazed at my father.
After 20 years of marriage,
he still has the energy to liven things up;
To coax and cajole my mother
To show his love through words.
And so it shows:
Couplehood does not become routine after some time
It just depends on the two people in the couple.
And certainly, theirs is a marriage that we should never stop reading
I wonder then.. which path ll my story take?
Onces it reaches its boring point.
*I wonder.*
8/06/2005 02:42:00 AM
Its really cool,
Though an afterthough was that the rooms were pretty much divided into areas
And that the escalator/lift area with the doors to the areas resembled the hospital lift areas with doors leading to wards.
That is: our study rooms = wards.
Got a bit lost initially
And the escalators that only moved based on movement sensors
Were abit unnerving cos they started to beep as i moved near them in my attempt to get my orientation around the floor =[
Lucky i found my way,
Even looked around the area as I walked.
The building is really big and everything is new!
Exciting!
But my city campus tour guide interview was screwed.
I got nervous & fumbled & babbled my way through.
As usual...
I must learn to stay calm always... for my own good
And then the bimbotical side of me went to tap my card at a exit barrier that was not activated 8)
Silly right!! super embarassing but lucky no one saw.
And that was my half hour spent in Social Science Building.
Short but eventful.
Wonder if Business Block will be an exact replica..
So much for creativity then!
*Excited to go back to school!*
8/04/2005 12:39:00 AM
Must be the hot soup and flower.
Miracles what simple stuff can do
To lighten up one's day.
Anyone besides blade up with code cracking?
I think its real fun to write in codes =]
Expect more of that, folks!
nothing much actually happening in my life.
Guess I am at a standstill
Kinda want to look for jobs to earn $$
But got tuitions & school's starting.
Can't decide if its sane to work & tuition & study in 3 weeks time
Been feeling poor yet still splurging
Keep telling myself that my earnings are just stashed away
Locked into policies & savings
Is it or is it not?
*Gees.. confused one*
Here's a code for breaking:
jnifsfbmxbztgpszpv114533
8/02/2005 01:45:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey