yet another day of memories...
Tell me why caffine is not effective for me
Craving for sleep the whole day
Just wanna lie in & zzz the next 48 hours away.
Met Mel today for her 21st
She's too nice
Always giving in to XXY
when there is actually no love involved
Its just the fear of XXY's threats
That make her just tolerate.
Was told today that I am too mean
*shrugs*
Being mean is just how I protect myself ya?
What you see may not be the real inner me always
But if I am mean,
I wish to impart some to Mel too.
No one deserve to be ill-treated the way she is
If she has half my hard-heartedness
She ll probably be happier off bah.
Hope I am sounding coherent.
Haven been feeling real sober the whole day
Dropped my mobile and work phone, * butter fingers*
And was utterly confused with the Cartel manager and her
"How about changing/adding this/that" =[
Ended up not being sure about what I ordered
And being lost when this butch delivered our drinks
Turns out I ordered extra =[
She was nice too.. bothered to explain to me patiently
What each item on the receipts entail
(Yupz.. 2 receipts cuz me was blur)
I couldn't help noticing her hand though
Full of short cuts scars..
*wonders why*
Nope.. am not butch-crazy
Just curious abt the scars..
Learning to be more observant
And I take this as an positive sign
Am letting go & thinking less about the past
5/07/2005 01:31:00 AM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey