yet another day of memories...
Hug it in a corner
And cry out shamelessly
Cry out all the tears
The hurt, the betrayal
People often say wonderful things
And how nice it is to believe them
But reality is such
That my trust in people is sometimes misplaced
It makes me scared
Just wanna curl up as an porcupine
Protect myself from everyone else
Will I ever learn to trust again?
Trust freely the way I used to.
Tempted to go for the Vienna Exchange
Should I just ignore all fears and just try?
Its enticing despite the costs.
But am afraid that it's just an easy way out
A way for me to hide from all my problems
*Temporarily
Thought I was letting go.
Mom going away for my birthday;
Just reminded me of her going away
How I loathe myself for crying
And not just letting go strongly.
I want to be strong
To not let a single teardrop be shed again
To not let the past be a barrier
Is it possible?
5/05/2005 03:00:00 PM
Dreams
To be out and open
Independence
To be totally Christ-like
I believe that:
Courage is not an absence of fear
but the willingness to face up to the circumstances in spite of the fear.
Desires
A Pair of Pretty Sandals!
CPA! Achieved!
Investment Guru
dislikes
creepy crawly "things"
Unnecessary politics
Goals
get driving license
start my own business
to create my own hedge fund
older memories
my past journey